Ki I know my truth

Don't think Id wana quite you...

So I'm going to start with one off by saying… WOW! I'm speechless “why am I writing this then?” I laugh while typing. In my previous blog I said I was coming back for an Arab… strangely enough I’ve come cross one that, well I didn’t expect. But my oh my! You know how when you see that pair of shoes that you just have to have! Well yeah this is kind of how I am feeling. I used to think I knew what attraction was but this really opened my eyes! For the first time I found myself in awe of this guys personality. Like couldn’t get enough of it… would I be pushing it by saying love at first sight? Yeah no that was a joke but its defiantly attraction at first sight.

I remember thinking to myself “this is how I want it to be” while we layed on the wooden paneled floor (I love wooden floors). We must have layed there speaking for close on 3 hours! Like what! And there was not one second that I felt the convocation was “dry”

He listens to all the shit I had to say, all my crazy ideas and show real interest (I think it was real…. Wait he is an actor) we laughed smiled (ever tried laughing without smiling) could deal with that shit for life! and when o touch him something happen and not its not sexual its so real.

Its safe to say that you have to be friends with your soul mate! It will make for such a happy life! I'm  still pretty speechless like yeah. I Feel so new to this. I probably shouldn’t broadcast suck things over the net but what can I say I pretty open. I have to say it’s crazy cute how he smiles while he sleeps and talks in a baby voice when tired.

“thinking to myself” Falling head over hills? Possibly … but what if? You never know.

So yeah just wanted to say there is hope out there. There are some pretty amazing people out there I guess they just need to fall into your path.

Anyway let’s see where this goes.

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K I’m done

All you need is LOVE!

So I here I am on flight J371 Mango airlines, its 20:50 and I’m on my way back to Cape Town to pursue love. Now this is coming from a guy that doesn’t usually believe in love and soul mates and that sort of thing. But what can I say there’s just this one person that makes really happy yet really angry, but I think it’s the happiness that counts the most. “So I’d like to think” trying to convince myself. You see six months ago I decided to “run away” from stresses and worries and negativity that surrounded me in Cape Town hoping that by increasing my distance would decrease all of these problems. And yes for the first few weeks I was kept busy in my new job and forgot about all these problems I thought I had gotten rid of. But it all soon came back knocking in my door. At 21 years of age I can say that the only way to deal with stress, problems, anger, hate, love, addiction is to face it head on! No matter where you run how you hide or who you are, they will always follow you. I once wrote a small piece titled “Life in the Sky”  this comparing to life as we know it to a flight experience (yes I love aviation).  So 30 minutes to landing and this time around I’m going to start preparing for my future I’m going to face all my problems head on and not shy away like a coward and at the same time I’m hoping for  decent love story to come about too. Let’s face it we all need love we all need that someone that’s there for us no matter what.

And this time I’m going to try find that in a cute Arab boy. Okay he isn’t really Arab but he looks the part. “Wait did that sound gay?”I find myself laughing, well maybe I am?